Am I Ready??

He add me in Facebook emm… i think around 3 months ago, after LM quarterly workshop. I found it weird coz it rarely happen to me and I’m just normal ordinary person during that time, nothing shine or special about me, no eye catching. He said he add me coz he see me in the quarterly workshop picture and some of my comment I made in other instructor Facebook page.

We start to get acquaintance emm… for the last 3 weeks, chatting here and there through Facebook. Number were exchange and the next thing happen we are chit chatting in Whatsapp!! From acquaintance we get closer. Some intimate conversation took place, I don’t want to rush by my heart seems not stoppable. Many reason for me not to rush, 1st, is will be long distance relationship, and 2nd we never meet each other yet, just picture from Facebook. Sweet nickname start to come out, he call me baby, and I call him dear….. haha.. never thought I would have this chance heh… One more.. he is pretty much elder than me, that would not be a problem; nothing to rant about, perhaps I need a mature man to tame me! Using whip…. >.< why suddenly I think kinky?!!

Every minute and hour I’m anticipating his message, when I receive his message I feel happy, contented. Having somebody wish you good morning every morning and good night every night before go to sleep such a nice feeling.

Being big slut, (anybody disagree?), can I sustain no sex for a long period of time? Coz I can only meet up with him probably once every 2-3 weeks. Lucky for me, he is off on Saturday! Shall I able to handle this relationship?

I’m very good in sex, it’s time for me to learn how to love.

Does It Has to End Up with Sex?

I recently notice 1 of my weakness, when I fallen to some one, I feel weak, no energy. The recent incident made me cannot concentrate in my pump class. I can't complete chest track with 7.5kg for god sake!!! >.<

I tried to abandon the feeling, I really dont like it! Just as I try my very best to forget him last night after gym; he called. He hit me to meet up or go his place, I tried to ignore by saying I'm very tired wanna rest etc etc. We then exchange few messages. He then ask again. My reply, go his place after I had my dinner.

How we wrap up the night? Sex of course! Is kinda unusual coz we were chatting, giggling.. Hahaha... I overnight at his place, next morning I wear his clothes and pants to work... So sweet and romantic kan? Don't jealous!! Hehehehe..

Let's Start From the Very Beginning...

First saw him in gym when I just join... Just exchange glances. He don't do GX, workout at free weight area and do dance class. Donno what his name.

Around 1 year after, we are commenting a friend post in fb. But I donno was him, just simply commenting. Add him, but no confirmation.

Another year gone by, until recently; message a guy in Grindr, to my surprise, it was him! He remind me of event number 2, then I remember who he is. We practically flirt to each other in Grindr like everybody did. Thus got confirmation in fb.

He is a professional pianist!

Recently from fb, got to know he broke up with his bf. Last weekend date him out watch Burlesque (motif kan??), I already watched before actually. We then had lunch at A&W, coz he likes it. Also my first time eat A&W.

Just now, date him watch concert in KLCC MPO.

Next, I donno....

One After Another

Recently had an experience exactly describe by this song.

一个又一个 排队等缘分
前面丢后面捡
捡到的变恋人 丢的变路人
一个就一个 手空着就开车
寂寞就先晾着 坚强是种天份
直到更好的下一个
走了一个忘了一个
才懂眼泪对自己最残忍
笑着不会不舍得
来了一个爱了一个
确定感觉是真的
只要确定感觉是真的
怕了就当作是伤多一刻
这一个或许是对的人

 

That's All.........

I can only give you love that lasts forever
And a promise to be near each time you call
And the only heart I own
For you and you alone
That's all

I can only give country walks in spring time
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall
And a love whose buring light
Will warm the winter's night
That's all

There are those I am sure who have told you
That would give you the world for toy
All I have are these arms to enfold you
And a love even time can't destroy

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return dear
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small
Say it's me that you'll adore
For now and evermore
That's all